I started to pig out on mashed potatoes,but stopped after the 3rd bite. My 18 year old son is moving in with a really fat female friend of his,in 1 month. Its hitting me extremely hard. I am finding myself feeling suicidal. I would pig out on high fat food,but I am doing good in losing weight,but there’s nothing more to live for. I am right now using subliminals to attract a miracle. I also have a fifth of Peppermint Schnapps.