I rarely eat a meal & most certainly don’t eat anything healthy. I can’t stay awake long enough to microwave a meal,so I attempt to live on jello,yogurt,& oranges…quick grab & eat foods. Sometimes I’ll have a candy bar or ice cream. I’m painfully weak,can hardly walk or even move. I binge on booze cuz its nearly the only thing I can do.
I talk & dream about those delicious soups,but I never have the strength to make them. If I stand beyond 2 minutes I fear I will collapse,hit my head,& die. I know this is an unhealthy way of eating is killing me & hate it. I’m starving,but not losing weight,but not obese. My belly is my BIGGEST problem.
Eating is difficult…& so I starve. I have 7 naps a day. I am always falling asleep & my son checks to make sure I’m still alive.
I have lung spasms,great difficulty breathing,allergies,aches,pains,high blood pressure,great difficulty walking,sleep most of the day,awake all night,cramps in my hands,digestive troubles,sinus infection,poor vision,constipation,weak bladder…I’m swollen & bloated so severely…well,strangers stare at me like I’m a freak or going to die any second. I’m fatigued,exhausted…stressed,depressed,anxious,& worried. I have rapid heartbeat…irregular heartbeat. I shake & tremble. My lips & skin are dry & scaly. Its only by the grace of God I am alive.