I’ll blame that on me being gravely ill the past week…unbearably painful sinus congestion,horrific earache,infected & terribly painful gums,& now detox is kicking in. I’ll get back on the diuretics & see if that deletes the 2 pounds I’ve gained.
On a positive note…the honey & vinegar cocktail is draining my sinuses & giving me some much needed energy. The biggest positive is that I can now walk without pain or limping.
I continue having trouble with breathing…&…with much shame…I am still binging on booze nightly…but have reduced the amount I drink…last night I had 2 beers…that’s all I wanted.
I’m not perfect & I’m not a saint…nor do I want pity for my obesity & badly deteriorated health. I am the 1 that wrecked my life & health…via the choices I made,the errors,mistakes,my thoughts,& beliefs…I created this hell in which I live. I don’t deserve pity,but I also don’t deserve to be hated & attacked. I became what I thought about…what I believed…what I feared. I attracted all the things I didn’t want.
I continue working on transformation,my thoughts,my beliefs,my mentality,& spirituality. I will never be perfect & I will never be a saint,but I can transform my life into 1 worth living.