After I Turned 50

I don’t want to go into negativity,but my life…I found myself in a morbidly dark place. There I was…50…I felt old…half my life was forever gone & nothing to show for it. I packed up my beautiful wishes & my hobbies & gave up. I abandoned my passions. I stopped living. 

My hobbies,passions,& wishes took me back to my youth. I felt cheated,betrayed,& robbed. I’d look at my collection of cars racing games & I’d cry. The daily reminders of my passions broke my heart. I had nothing left…age had erased it all. I became suicidal. I was living in dread of my hair turning gray & my face filling with wrinkles. It didn’t help that I was a hermit,with nothing to lift my spirit. 

I made a feeble attempt to lose weight. I returned to the Laws Of Attraction & resurrected my beautiful wishes,while grieving for my youth,which was forever gone,while entertaining thoughts of suicide. I’m now 52 & still in that dark place…nothing has changed,excepts for the Universe has called me to teach the Laws Of Attraction…I’m not qualified…I’m not ready…I’ve never lived…let me sleep,its the only escape I can find. 

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About Brenda Cooper

I've been a student & user of the Laws Of Attraction for over 30 years. I remain poor,a hermit,& abused, I am in my 50s & my husband is in his 60s. I have 2 young adult sons. Blogging is my therapy. My grandest dream is to move to Green Cove Springs Florida,
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