Makes me realize what a messed up,confused,complicated,complex individual I am. Much of it is connected to anxiety,depression,fears,insecurity,& excessively low self esteem.
Back to when I pretended I was dieting. Did I really think I was fooling anyone? Here in the present my digital scales hate me & won’t show my weight. My belly is so huge,bloated,& swelled…well ah,I can’t tell if I’m fat,obese,or simply…all belly.
My belly is so swelled & in so much pain I think its going to bust wide open. All I ate was a cup of yogurt. I need my meds. Enough diet chatter.