I am eating more than usual. A bag full of those little cups of ice cream & I ate em all. I choose quick foods…usually junk. I haven’t exercised in 2 weeks. Oh I’m not dieting & really shouldn’t be concerned,but the diet mentality doesn’t vanish within 24 hours. I am still facing my diet demons…guilt,fear,insecurity,self punishment,low self esteem,an inferiority complex,pity parties,confusion,& all the others.
I am concerned my belly will sag & bag after it flattens…if it ever does. I can’t afford to have the loose skin removed. Maybe I am thinking within anxiety…maybe I’ve watched to many shows about obese people…maybe I need something to do & so I worry. When my thoughts are activated I can’t turn em off. I am powerless.