One Way Or The Other

I am either way back in the past,reliving horrible situations,or I’m deep into the future looking for that light at the end of the tunnel. There’s no peace,no rest,nothing but darkness,fear,& dread. I need to sob,to scream. I want to escape…vanish. I’m either living in the past or in the future. Its unbearable. I’m going to end up in a mental hospital.It seems I’m always playing with worst case scenarios…a terrible game to play…mental & emotional assault…adding salt to fresh wounds…emotional & mental abuse.

Through the chaos I can hear God whispering to me…I want to run to Him…& then I remember…He was in the center of the turmoil…no,I can’t go back there. Leave me injured on the cold,wet rocks…let me become a far distant memory.

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About Brenda Cooper

I've been a student & user of the Laws Of Attraction for over 30 years. I remain poor,a hermit,& abused, I am in my 50s & my husband is in his 60s. I have 2 young adult sons. Blogging is my therapy. My grandest dream is to move to Green Cove Springs Florida,
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