spent last night binging on beer,gin,& whiskey. I awoke with my breathing mask off,wondering how that happened. I remember last night…all of it…cepts for the breathing mask…it was on,but I wasn’t wearing it…it was laying beside me. There I lay,feeling suicidal…naw…it was unbearable regret. I haven’t drank hard liquor in ages. It was after I went to bed that I can’t remember. I got up,went to the bathroom,peed,& then back to bed. I wanted to sleep off this damn hangover,but lay there & beat myself up for choosing to binge on hard liquor. I am so very weak & so very disoriented.