on the verge of tears all day…insane thoughts…homesick…worrying about my age & all that goes with aging. I’m looking into a blank future. Inside I am crying. I have my dream car,I should be happy…I’m not,but am grateful,thankful,appreciative. So many blessings & here I am,unbearably depressed. I never feel safe…always insecure…no self-esteem. Worst case scenarios…battling depression,anxiety,& stress. I am wasting away in my comfort zone. Am I waiting to die or waiting for a way out of this self-made hell?