Had a long talk with my Mom on the phone,about depression. I have the same thing as my Dad. We are obsessive & worry excessively. It has a name,but I forgot it. Anyway,we can’t control or stop our thoughts. My Dad spent 5 days in a mental hospital. He is now on the proper meds & doing much better. I’m not on meds,cuz they make me sleepy. I’m stubborn & remain convinced I can get relief using subliminals & self hypnosis.
I was surprised to learn my Dad has suffered the same disorders as me. Everything I am going through,my Dad has gone through. 2 of my sisters have this disorder & are on meds.
I spend my life in fear,dread,& worry. I am stressed,obsessed,& phobic. I never feel safe. I’m an introvert with no self esteem. My thoughts are insane & all over the place,always negative. I am always thinking & expecting the worst. I have no control. I feel trapped,overwhelmed. I feel helpless,hopeless,doomed.