I’m putting in the effort…no weight loss whatsoever…& then I think of my age…53. Does my size even matter? My youth is gone. I can’t think clear & logical today. I am deeply depressed,hungover,& sleepy. It seems pointless,meaningless,silly to be on a journey to lose weight at my age. Yes,but its for my health & well being. Surely I will never again be attractive. Or is there magic potions to make me look 30 again? Does it even matter what I look like? Why do I even care? Maybe cuz I’m stuck in the 80s,when I was slender & beautiful…young…popular with the guys. I could never look like that again. I’ve been fat for many years. I’ve abused & neglected my body all these years. I’ve greatly damaged my health & am alive only by the grace of God. Here’s a picture of me in my youth.