there’s nothing but emptiness. I’d say I watch 200 YouTube vids each day. Naps are like a rewarding vacation in a tropical paradise. This is the hermit life. Hundreds of books in my bedroom,unread,collecting dust. Hundreds of blank journals. Car racing games I haven’t played in years. Even my dreams are collecting dust. 9 years in this old rental house,in this dangerous neighborhood. Its the emptiness that’s so brutal,nothing to do,but watch vids,read,write,eat,& sleep.