Its something I’d never do elsewhere. I did in the past & was hated,bullied,& received death threats. Unless you have mental illness you can’t understand it & you have no idea how it feels & how much it damages you. It robbed me of my passion for interior design & devoured my passion for sporty cars. I gave up my hobbies & became a hermit. My health deteriorated & fear became my constant companion. I live a severely isolated existence,severely limited. Tormented by fears & insecurity my life went into limbo. I stopped going to big stores like Wal-Mart & took to online shopping. I became a nightly boozer. If I don’t booze enough I will awake with insane & terrifying thoughts…& will relive bad experiences from my past. The night terrifies me & gloomy days depress me. I quit daily reading & stopped journaling. I walked out on God. I stopped living.