I gave up my hobbies,the things I loved,those things that were my passion. I don’t know if I should do those things,like car racing games,rock n roll,my dreams,the journaling,& even reading. Am I at a age where I sit & do nothing? Is all those things for the young? What do you do when you are my age? Am I way past enjoying life? I would like to do the things I love…or are those things not for a woman my age? Should I lay here & wait to die? My life is half gone…just the last half awaits me…& I am not ready. I don’t know what this all means. Hobbies frighten me. My books speak volumes about my youth…now gone. My dreams take me to when I was young. I want to stop & wait for old age to catch me. It seems normal,natural,what us older folks do. I’m not ready to die,not at all,but where do I go & what can I do.