Monthly Archives: November 2017

The Real Truth About Money

My husband idolizes money & barely spends it,except for rent & bills. He lives for that next paycheck,not so much cause he needs it,but he literally idolizes money. He’s 64 & hasn’t started living & enjoying life,unless you consider binging … Continue reading

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What’s Mental Illness?

I found it at Twitter & ran with it. Yes,I know all about it. I emptied all my thoughts about it & that was an abundance. I never knew so many people have mental illness & all the problems it … Continue reading

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Returning To My Life

It got started with the new house, & a bedroom big enough to be a library to my abundance of books.¬† Up next I am getting a brand new pc! I will be able to play all my favorite car … Continue reading

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Anxiety Out Of Control

always sleepy…can’t stay awake. I’m not connecting to realty & none of it feels like home. Its like I don’t belong here & nothing feels right. I feel homesick,but sick for what? This place isn’t home…TN isn’t home. Do I … Continue reading

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Inside Of Me I Am Dying

no,not literally,but emotionally & mentally I am dying. Its anxiety & all its culprits. You know,the worry,stress,depression,panic attacks,fears…all those things that makes life a dread & makes us want to close our eyes & never wake up. Its a bad … Continue reading

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Its Not Home

We appreciate this new house we live in. We are most certainly grateful. All credit goes to God. It never would’ve happen without him. He made a way & open the door. However,its not home…not yet. It doesn’t feel like … Continue reading

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Social Media Profiles

Way back 7 or so years ago,I learned to use a¬†picture of sporty cars as my profile in social media,like Facebook,Twitter,& the others. I could hide behind the cars. I did have knowledge of cars & a passion for them. … Continue reading

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Never Actually Pretty

Sure,I could hold my own when alone,but with other women I was average & blended in. Maybe it didn’t help that I became an alcoholic & later a chain smoker. I was always the least in my family & was … Continue reading

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Feeling Sad & Empty

I went through my pc car racing games. It tore me apart. Its been over a year since I played those games. My laptop doesn’t have a CD player. I am also wondering if I am way past playing the … Continue reading

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My Anxious Self Is Much Worse

The new home hasn’t helped me. Its so much worse. I mean the anxiousness thoughts. The thoughts are unreal & 100% out of control. I hate the thoughts & won’t them gone forever. I can’t control them or skip over … Continue reading

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