always sleepy…can’t stay awake. I’m not connecting to realty & none of it feels like home. Its like I don’t belong here & nothing feels right. I feel homesick,but sick for what? This place isn’t home…TN isn’t home. Do I even belong in this savage world in which we live? Do I even want to be here now? I am anxious,overflowing with stress,severely depressed,overflooded with fear. I am beginning to fear all people & even those I love. I am slipping away from reality,away from life as we know it. I don’t really trust leaving my house. Most of the time I am a hermit,deep within my comfort zone. It is here I wish to stay. I don’t want to see what’s outside. I don’t want to leave my comfort zone.